Depression is an evil monster and if you let it win. It’s game over. No matter how destructive it is, you can learn some valuable lessons. These will make you stronger and compassionate towards the suffering of other human beings. After years of torment and struggle, I now see life differently. It isn’t as dark anymore. Depression has grown empathy and understanding in me. Here are the top 10+ lesson I have learned:
Pebbles graze me, cut my psyche and make me feel weak and dizzy.
Rocks hit me, knock me back, knock me down. Leaving holes I don’t think I can fill.
Boulders knock me down. They lie me flat and break me, my body in splinters though no one can see.
I look at my skin and I want to make it imperfect like my soul. Bring the cuts to the surface. Show everyone my brokenness.
I resist, not for strength or love of self, but because I am too tired to make the effort.
How I would like to close my eyes. Sink into nothing and never rise again. I awake for love. Not of my self, but of those who love me.
Every day when the demon in my head hurls boulders and tries to make me give up, I rise for love.
I am exhausted. The sun shines so seldom in my world, but for a few hours every day I am loved and the demon is quiet.
I will lose one day when all who love me are gone, but for now I rise for love.
I am so tired, but for them I will do anything. Even fight the demon who would destroy me.
Depression whispers lies in my ear Telling me all the things that I fear I don’t want to listen, don’t want to hear But my depression knows All that I hold dear
‘They don’t love you’ ‘They’re not your friends’ ‘You’ll be all alone in the end’ ‘You are worthless’ ‘Be ashamed’
How do I cease the voice inside Telling me to run and hide To shut myself from those I love To hang from the ceiling Or escape in drug
Tell me what I can do Why can’t I feel loved like others do Why does depression kick in my door Convince me I’m not loved anymore
I have to fight it, I know I can But no one can help me I’ll only drive them away My depression Is going to win one day
Rambles & Rabble 